2006-10-30, Tuesday.
Happy Halloween!
At long last I am home. I haven’t been for the past three days. Three awesome days that are, in a way, life defining. I really miss this. Sitting on my computer. Typing. Without any worries as to whether I should submit a paper or study for an exam. I am rested and I am happy. Right now, I am on the verge of watching Grey’s Anatomy Season 2 Episode 14. I just love it and I’m currently hooked. *Smile*
Now, Let me tell you something about my weekend.
About Metrocon…
Last Saturday to Sunday, I went to the Youth For Christ (YFC) Metroconference (Metrocon). I should say it was quite a blast! Owing to the fact that we snuck out to bathe. It was quite an adventure, and a pasaway adventure at that. I am deeply greatful for the experience though. Not for the sneeking or the late-night canteen but for the feeling of having God back in my life. For the feeling of unhindered peace. I am so happy to have experienced God through my friends, through the place, and through the YFC. I am so glad that despite the rough start of the metrocon (remember, we snuck out to bathe), Meedge, Har, and I came there to discover what we were looking for and more. I am really grateful for the preparations done. The whole place was one-of-a-kind. The part that highlighted the whole event for me was the evening praise and worship. It was the first time that I worshiped God without being hindered by my thoughts. It gave me a sense of power that I could be who I want to be and I could worship the Lord in more ways than one. I believe that I am the worst critic of myself. I often criticized myself for worshiping this way or that way. Like as if I’m never going to be true enough or worthy enough. But this time, God gave way for me. He gave me a chance to feel His intense love so I could change. So I don’t have to be stuck in a life which I don’t want. So I need not be stuck in sin, pride, agony, lust. I am deeply grateful for the opportunity. That He gave me a chance and a fighting spirit to change. The Lord God really works and He works well. He gives you the answers to you questions so you’d better listen. He gave me everything in the exact right time. Might I share – the theme of the Metrocon: Rev Up is from a passage in Rev 21:5 which says “Behold, I make things new”. With that, everything seemed right for me. That event was the chance, my chance, and God was telling me that He would make me new. That He forgives me. That YFC was not about crushes or feelings of inferiority, It was about Him, about service, about goodness. It was never about me, It was always about Him. Until now, I still pray that the Lord’s will be done. I did not understand that fully but I knew deep in my heart that everything that I want to happen to me should be the will of the Father. Like I said, not about me but about Him.
More Reflections…
There was also a talk about changing flat tires and having a clearer view (no 0 visibility). That errors in your life or the things that make you err should be removed and left to God. I was in that pit once. Maybe twice or thrice. But despite the fact that I err, I still try to lessen it. I still try to be better each day. I try not to judge and be angry. I try to level it out more now. I do not say that I’ll never err. I will. But I’ll try my best not to. I won’t give up without a fight. And I’m fighting for God. I will win as long as He’s with me. There was this quote by Burke on Grey’s Anatomy wherein he said that there are things that he can’t control and that he believes in a higher power. I believe in this statement. Being a nurse, it has happened, one too many times wherein miracles happen, weird things, good things happen, and even disasters happen but you get out of them still. You thought that that was your day of death but you ended up overcoming it. Those miracles, those days, are from God. Not from anyone else. Even if people feel powerful, there are still things in this world, no matter how hard they try, they’d never overcome. You overcome things with God.
About my life on a Monday…
Yesterday was our submission for the Community Diagnosis (CDx) paper. Relson, Eric, and I were about to print it but a virus ate all the files that we edited. It was nerve-wrecking owing to the fact that this incident could cause our delay. Eric and I were talking about tests, and somehow, this was a test. Our first reaction was to laugh. Rels and I love to laugh, I hope Eric does too. He shows little laughter. Even through the desperate laughter, there was this tinge of “Will I get delayed?” dialogue. I’ve prayed for this one too many times too and suddenly it hit me. That no matter what happens to me, I will be okay as long as it is God’s will and plan. Everything is okay as long as I have Him. Of course I don’t easily lose hope. I won’t get delayed without a fight. And I assure you that it will be a good one. I don’t plan to be a failure. I just plan to work on what I have. To accept the things that come – whether I could control it or not. The experience was all fun and we had to break-in at Tin’s condo to fix everything. Luckily, all is well and it ended well. I just love Ma’am Dones.
Through all the experiences in my life cramped in this entry, I must say that I love my life and I love the God who made it happen. Everything is so beautiful as they fit perfectly together in the end. I am glad to be a part of God’s greater plan of love and life.
Cheers and God bless!
Jacqui
Happy Halloween!
At long last I am home. I haven’t been for the past three days. Three awesome days that are, in a way, life defining. I really miss this. Sitting on my computer. Typing. Without any worries as to whether I should submit a paper or study for an exam. I am rested and I am happy. Right now, I am on the verge of watching Grey’s Anatomy Season 2 Episode 14. I just love it and I’m currently hooked. *Smile*
Now, Let me tell you something about my weekend.
About Metrocon…
Last Saturday to Sunday, I went to the Youth For Christ (YFC) Metroconference (Metrocon). I should say it was quite a blast! Owing to the fact that we snuck out to bathe. It was quite an adventure, and a pasaway adventure at that. I am deeply greatful for the experience though. Not for the sneeking or the late-night canteen but for the feeling of having God back in my life. For the feeling of unhindered peace. I am so happy to have experienced God through my friends, through the place, and through the YFC. I am so glad that despite the rough start of the metrocon (remember, we snuck out to bathe), Meedge, Har, and I came there to discover what we were looking for and more. I am really grateful for the preparations done. The whole place was one-of-a-kind. The part that highlighted the whole event for me was the evening praise and worship. It was the first time that I worshiped God without being hindered by my thoughts. It gave me a sense of power that I could be who I want to be and I could worship the Lord in more ways than one. I believe that I am the worst critic of myself. I often criticized myself for worshiping this way or that way. Like as if I’m never going to be true enough or worthy enough. But this time, God gave way for me. He gave me a chance to feel His intense love so I could change. So I don’t have to be stuck in a life which I don’t want. So I need not be stuck in sin, pride, agony, lust. I am deeply grateful for the opportunity. That He gave me a chance and a fighting spirit to change. The Lord God really works and He works well. He gives you the answers to you questions so you’d better listen. He gave me everything in the exact right time. Might I share – the theme of the Metrocon: Rev Up is from a passage in Rev 21:5 which says “Behold, I make things new”. With that, everything seemed right for me. That event was the chance, my chance, and God was telling me that He would make me new. That He forgives me. That YFC was not about crushes or feelings of inferiority, It was about Him, about service, about goodness. It was never about me, It was always about Him. Until now, I still pray that the Lord’s will be done. I did not understand that fully but I knew deep in my heart that everything that I want to happen to me should be the will of the Father. Like I said, not about me but about Him.
More Reflections…
There was also a talk about changing flat tires and having a clearer view (no 0 visibility). That errors in your life or the things that make you err should be removed and left to God. I was in that pit once. Maybe twice or thrice. But despite the fact that I err, I still try to lessen it. I still try to be better each day. I try not to judge and be angry. I try to level it out more now. I do not say that I’ll never err. I will. But I’ll try my best not to. I won’t give up without a fight. And I’m fighting for God. I will win as long as He’s with me. There was this quote by Burke on Grey’s Anatomy wherein he said that there are things that he can’t control and that he believes in a higher power. I believe in this statement. Being a nurse, it has happened, one too many times wherein miracles happen, weird things, good things happen, and even disasters happen but you get out of them still. You thought that that was your day of death but you ended up overcoming it. Those miracles, those days, are from God. Not from anyone else. Even if people feel powerful, there are still things in this world, no matter how hard they try, they’d never overcome. You overcome things with God.
About my life on a Monday…
Yesterday was our submission for the Community Diagnosis (CDx) paper. Relson, Eric, and I were about to print it but a virus ate all the files that we edited. It was nerve-wrecking owing to the fact that this incident could cause our delay. Eric and I were talking about tests, and somehow, this was a test. Our first reaction was to laugh. Rels and I love to laugh, I hope Eric does too. He shows little laughter. Even through the desperate laughter, there was this tinge of “Will I get delayed?” dialogue. I’ve prayed for this one too many times too and suddenly it hit me. That no matter what happens to me, I will be okay as long as it is God’s will and plan. Everything is okay as long as I have Him. Of course I don’t easily lose hope. I won’t get delayed without a fight. And I assure you that it will be a good one. I don’t plan to be a failure. I just plan to work on what I have. To accept the things that come – whether I could control it or not. The experience was all fun and we had to break-in at Tin’s condo to fix everything. Luckily, all is well and it ended well. I just love Ma’am Dones.
Through all the experiences in my life cramped in this entry, I must say that I love my life and I love the God who made it happen. Everything is so beautiful as they fit perfectly together in the end. I am glad to be a part of God’s greater plan of love and life.
Cheers and God bless!
Jacqui
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