Eric and I had a rough time where nakikita na namin yung weaknesses ng isa't isa. Weaknesses that could make you love a person less. Weaknesses that could shake your foundations. Weaknesses that actually made me want to give up. Yesterday, I wanted to give up na. I texted him... I wanted out of the commitment na. The pain brought by the weaknesses was immense. I had a hard time accepting it talaga. As I spoke to him how I wanted out - he kept telling me how he didn't like my idea. Dun ko lang narealize paunti-unti na maybe he loves me more than I thought. Where we are is confusing - yung grey area. It caused a lot of trials in our relationship talaga. Thank God lang na we get through. Now, as I'm writing sa bus papuntang Monumento, I learned na perfect love from God really got us through. We both know that we're not perfect... na we will never really be enough for each other - dapat talaga may Diyos in every relationship. He is the only one keeping us together and as long as God is there - I'm contented na. Kung hindi dahil sa Kanya, wala kami. Amazing lang talaga ng Diyos. Ngayon, ok na kami and na-a-affirm lang ako na siya nga talaga yung person for me. Yung person na nagpalapit sa akin mas lalo sa Diyos ko. Yung person na pinagdasal ko at plinano para sa akin ni God. Right now, hindi pa ko fully recovered from pain pero in time, I'll get healed. I'll keep praying. In relationships, we are not immune from pain. No such thing as happily ever after in this world. What is sure however, is the presence of forgiveness, hope, faith, and love; the assurance that you are where you're supposed to be and kahit ano pang hirap - you'll be able to rise from it.
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