"I am Jacqui. I love myself. I am aware. Jesus loves me. My family loves me. My friends love me."
This is a mantra I have to tell myself now everyday.
Don't laugh at me because I know it seems funny but I just wanted to share a piece of me with you. Lately I have been having anxiety attacks brought by stress. Well I am also quite anemic at the moment. So combined, I'm a nervous wreck right now. Eric told me to take time off from YFC this Sunday. And my dad counseled me last night. He knew what I was going through and it's just amazing na ung past experiences niya, nararamdaman ko rin ngayon. Now I understand why God allowed me to slip into my cocoon this weekend - to understand myself and rest muna para stress level down.
Actually, right now, I still don't feel like going to school. I feel like I'm gonna break down at the ward. It has become a fear for me. I'm kind of deciding at the moment kung mag-one week break ako o hindi. Ngaun gets ko na ung napagdadaanan ng mga batchmates ko na nag-breakdown or naging exhausted. Yung parang ayaw mo lang talaga pumasok sa school as in tas gusto mo lang nasa peaceful environment. No stir. No noise. No pollution whatsoever. Like you want to have a vacation pero hindi mo makuha. Knowing you couldn't have it sends you to panic mode.
Okay ka pa?
Kaya mo pa ba yung sharing ko?
This is me now and I hope to get better soon. I hope to have the drive to go back to school without feeling anxious.
I'll keep praying. God bless and have a peaceful sleep ahead.
This is a mantra I have to tell myself now everyday.
Don't laugh at me because I know it seems funny but I just wanted to share a piece of me with you. Lately I have been having anxiety attacks brought by stress. Well I am also quite anemic at the moment. So combined, I'm a nervous wreck right now. Eric told me to take time off from YFC this Sunday. And my dad counseled me last night. He knew what I was going through and it's just amazing na ung past experiences niya, nararamdaman ko rin ngayon. Now I understand why God allowed me to slip into my cocoon this weekend - to understand myself and rest muna para stress level down.
Actually, right now, I still don't feel like going to school. I feel like I'm gonna break down at the ward. It has become a fear for me. I'm kind of deciding at the moment kung mag-one week break ako o hindi. Ngaun gets ko na ung napagdadaanan ng mga batchmates ko na nag-breakdown or naging exhausted. Yung parang ayaw mo lang talaga pumasok sa school as in tas gusto mo lang nasa peaceful environment. No stir. No noise. No pollution whatsoever. Like you want to have a vacation pero hindi mo makuha. Knowing you couldn't have it sends you to panic mode.
Okay ka pa?
Kaya mo pa ba yung sharing ko?
This is me now and I hope to get better soon. I hope to have the drive to go back to school without feeling anxious.
I'll keep praying. God bless and have a peaceful sleep ahead.
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