I don't know where to start.
Seriously.
This whole Thursday to Thursday week has been too much for me. Such change.
ILC is a blessing.
It was THE event that made me closer to the Lord and really DESIRE change in my life. I wanted HIM to be real in my life now. To do as HE wills. I accepted the challenge, the responsibility as a true YFC.
I am thankful for Kat, Har, Meedge, and Rex - my household for being there.
I am thankful for the members sa ILC who will now be serving other YFC chapters or areas or will serve God in other ways, our graduates - Ate Jessy, Evan, Jian, Madz, and Shing.
I am thankful for my newly talked to YFC members sa van- Joy, Louie, Maris, JC.
Sobrang mahina ang memory ko sa names pero at least may naalala pa ko.
Sobrang thankful din ako sa mga bros and sisses na wala sa ILC pero faithful pa rin kay Lord. :D
There are many things that I am thankful for sa ILC and mas lalo na for making me realize how much I love and desire to serve in the YFC family.
Here goes the tough part...
After the ILC, a bro already told me that he wants to talk to me. He has a BIG problem and he needs someone to share it too. I've missed this brother for so long and I really wanted to help him so much. He told me his problem on that Monday afternoon. It shocked me. I said my piece.
The next day, his friend retaliated to what I said. He cursed me. When he did, I did not feel angry. I felt hurt but not angry. It felt heavy and painful. Pero hanggang dun lang. I saw this as a test. Ang fasting ko kasi is not to be angry kasi I used to be an 'angry girl'. What I did was pray for the person and still told him that I can be trusted and I will remain a friend despite the differences. Afterwards, he said sorry and spur of the moment anger lang daw un. I was very thankful I passed that test.
On Wednesday, a friend told me that she does not want me to be a friend anymore. I have been assessing this. I know I avoided her because we had different beliefs but I never ended praying for her. I avoided her because her negativism burdened me a lot. And I am sorry that had to end in her part. I'll still pray for her no matter what.
I am very grateful for the changes in my life - for being able to worship twice in mapua na for 3 days pa lang after ILC. I am thankful that the Lord has been here providing me with my dear friends in YFC and household. These people are my pillars on earth. We all are strengthened by the one true God. I am thankful that Pau and Roni attends worship now. I am thankful for my Purpose Driven Life partners - Har, Roni, and Meedge. I am thankful that I felt the Lord's embrace last night. He comforted me through all my trials and sufferings. I am deeply thankful for the change in me these past few days. Ngayon lang ako ganito.
I will end here because my brother needs to use the pc.
"Take up your cross and follow me" - Jesus
Seriously.
This whole Thursday to Thursday week has been too much for me. Such change.
ILC is a blessing.
It was THE event that made me closer to the Lord and really DESIRE change in my life. I wanted HIM to be real in my life now. To do as HE wills. I accepted the challenge, the responsibility as a true YFC.
I am thankful for Kat, Har, Meedge, and Rex - my household for being there.
I am thankful for the members sa ILC who will now be serving other YFC chapters or areas or will serve God in other ways, our graduates - Ate Jessy, Evan, Jian, Madz, and Shing.
I am thankful for my newly talked to YFC members sa van- Joy, Louie, Maris, JC.
Sobrang mahina ang memory ko sa names pero at least may naalala pa ko.
Sobrang thankful din ako sa mga bros and sisses na wala sa ILC pero faithful pa rin kay Lord. :D
There are many things that I am thankful for sa ILC and mas lalo na for making me realize how much I love and desire to serve in the YFC family.
Here goes the tough part...
After the ILC, a bro already told me that he wants to talk to me. He has a BIG problem and he needs someone to share it too. I've missed this brother for so long and I really wanted to help him so much. He told me his problem on that Monday afternoon. It shocked me. I said my piece.
The next day, his friend retaliated to what I said. He cursed me. When he did, I did not feel angry. I felt hurt but not angry. It felt heavy and painful. Pero hanggang dun lang. I saw this as a test. Ang fasting ko kasi is not to be angry kasi I used to be an 'angry girl'. What I did was pray for the person and still told him that I can be trusted and I will remain a friend despite the differences. Afterwards, he said sorry and spur of the moment anger lang daw un. I was very thankful I passed that test.
On Wednesday, a friend told me that she does not want me to be a friend anymore. I have been assessing this. I know I avoided her because we had different beliefs but I never ended praying for her. I avoided her because her negativism burdened me a lot. And I am sorry that had to end in her part. I'll still pray for her no matter what.
I am very grateful for the changes in my life - for being able to worship twice in mapua na for 3 days pa lang after ILC. I am thankful that the Lord has been here providing me with my dear friends in YFC and household. These people are my pillars on earth. We all are strengthened by the one true God. I am thankful that Pau and Roni attends worship now. I am thankful for my Purpose Driven Life partners - Har, Roni, and Meedge. I am thankful that I felt the Lord's embrace last night. He comforted me through all my trials and sufferings. I am deeply thankful for the change in me these past few days. Ngayon lang ako ganito.
I will end here because my brother needs to use the pc.
"Take up your cross and follow me" - Jesus
Still
by Hillsong United
album: Hope (2003)
Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan
Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
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